2019

You know what bugs me? That October is the 10th month, and not the 8th. The other ones not so much, but yeah. This is to the point where I confuse August and October when writing down the date. Just thought you all should know that.  Alas, we are not even there yet. First month of the year! Six days in. And I have already read two books. Sometimes you just need that break in your life. I went from nothing in November/December, and now I am hoping to get through four, maybe even five books this month.

Recently, I just finished The City of Brass by S.A. Chakraborty. It was wonderful. I love that other cultures are entering the sci-fi/fantasy realm. There are so many creatures and stories around the world, and yet the genre seems to stick to the same old stuff a lot of the time. I tore through this book in two days, and am happy to hear I did it at a good time– the second book in the trilogy comes out this month. And it has been motivating toward my writing. Reading is honestly the best cure for writers block. Not a block in the sense of what to write, but more where to start fixing things in my draft. Or how to better approach the scenes I have been wanting to work on (exposition will be the death of me).

I also acquired the Alice Network by Kate Quinn on audiobook from the library. Depending on timing, I may have to return to that one at a later date, as I now have two books being released this month I desperately want to read. But so far I am really enjoying it. Trying really hard to jam in all the reading/writing/running I can into this month. February is looking, torturous. For my work-life balance that is. So right now I am sucking up as much life as humanly possible. Hopefully a vacation is on the horizon for early March. A little sun, wine, books, and Mom. A recipe for happiness.

It Was a Rebuilding Year

My Dad taught me this saying when I brought up how bad the Buffalo Bills were doing (I’m a Patriots fan. Yes, I know, you hate the Patriots). But I thought the saying really fit 2018 for me. perspective is everything and really, it wasn’t that bad of a year, it just left a lot to be desired. And for some people very close to me it was a bad year, and that clouds my judgement. I also have been pretty lucky to have some much more exiting years precede this one, so yeah, 2018. Bye. *Cough* Thank you, next *cough*

Honestly, it is already 2019 in my books. Christmas is over. All that excitement and movement, and now it is all done. Which I am okay with. I feel refreshed now. Did some cleaning, started my first book of next years goodreads goal, and planned out a few pages in my notebook/wannabe bullet journal. I am starting this year off the same way I did last year- with a depressing novel set during the Japanese occupation of Korea in WWII. Last year it was Pachinko by Min Jin Lee, which I LOVED, and hated, but loved. So sad. But this one may top it sadness wise. I am reading White Chrysanthemum by Mary Lin Bracht. Told from the perspective of two sisters, one who is trapped by their body, and the other by their mind. So far I am really enjoying it. Ashamedly, this was not a party of history I really knew anything about. There is a lot about the worlds’ history I don’t know though.

2019 is going to be full of changes. This is not me being all resolution-y. A lot is going on with my job, not bad, but, ehhhhhh, not really good. For me. For the company it is good I’m sure.  I just Googled quotes about change. I really wanted to put something super inspirational here. If I was feeling smarter I would write my own. Then I found this. I’ve never heard of its author, but man, does she hit home.

“We can’t be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the very reason why you don’t have something better.” – C. Joybell C.

People make fun of resolutions. I personally am a fan. The key is, to make a bunch of them, and the one is bound to come through, right? And you know what? So what if you don’t follow through. You tried. That is a step in the right direction. And maybe you will try again. And again. And one day, one day it will stick.  Like writing. Maybe, if I keep trying, it will stick 😛

 

Halfway There

Through the month, that is. Don’t get me wrong, I am no where near my 50k words. I had a feeling that it was a pretty unrealistic expectation from the beginning, but the point is I have been making good (but slow) progress. I am at about 15k words right now, and my goal is to be at 25k at the end of the month. I also had the unrealistic goal to have my Christmas shopping done by before Thanksgiving. I have yet to get one gift. You ask what I am doing in my spare time? Beats me. But I am always busy. It is like that meme, bills, bills! What are we even paying? We don’t know! Except replace bills with doing.  Busy, busy! What are we even doing? We don’t know!IMG_20181116_122201_227

Yesterday I did this. I couldn’t help it, the snow was perfect. It was my alternative workout as I didn’t really want to go to the gym. At this point I am sure the roads were fine, but hey, less people on them the better. I think one of our deer stole the nose.

I did finish the first workbook in my language learning adventure though, and I am pretty impressed with myself on that. Usually I peter out come future tense. I think because this is the most difficult language I have tackled this far, and that it being nothing but hard is actually a benefit. Often at first everything is really fun and kind of easy, and then you get to the hard parts and it just kid of turns you away from the whole thing. This has not been the case. I am a little behind on vocab recognition, but a lot of the grammar I have down. If I keep going with it all I am going to attempt to take a proficiency test in the summer. Not that I need it for anything other than my own measurement of learning.

The rest of the month is going to fly by. I have been listing to a new YA release, What if it’s Us by Becky Albertalli and Adam Silvera. It is not bad, but I don’t think it is for me. I know a lot of people really liked it, but, I don’t know. Maybe I have finally outgrown the YA genre. Or just need a break. That’s alright. I have plenty to distract me. Like the fact that Ralph Breaks the Internet comes out next week. I cannot tell you how long I have waited for this movie. Wreck-it Ralph is one of my top 5 favorite movies. I even dressed up as Vanellope von Schweetz for the Disney World Wine and Dine Half Marathon a few years ago. Needless to say, I will be there opening night! Happy Thanksgiving.

A Song or Twenty

This past weekend was my Dad’s birthday. Normally, I really struggle with what to get him. This year though, I had just the thing. A songbook/sheet music to Matchbox Twenty’s first album, Yourself or Someone Like You. As I said before, I am a huge fan. It is something unique I share in common with both my Mom and Dad, who are two very, very, different people. And I am not quite sure where it came from. The soft rock genre doesn’t do much for me. But here I am, letting MB20 commandeer a blog post finally.

My Dad plays the guitar and can sing pretty good for someone who has never had any formal vocal lessons. I, on the other hand, have no musical aptitude. That skipped me and went to the next child in the birth order. But we both have an appreciation for words, and the feelings that they convey. My Mom too. Maybe that’s why we have MB20 in common. I have mentioned the song Rest Stop before. It is one of the most powerful, sad songs I know. It was the song Dad and I talked about the other night. I had debated between either the book for the first album or the second, but went with the first since the latter is much darker. We could both quote the lyrics.

“She said, while you were sleeping
I was listening to the radio
And wondering what you’re dreaming when
It came to mind that I didn’t care”

I don’t have to describe the feeling. You either know it or you don’t. Don’t get me wrong, they have plenty of other songs vying for ‘saddest’, but I think this one takes the cake.

In other, happier news, I started two new books. Mystery by Peter Straub and Every Last Word by Tamara Ireland Stone. Both were recommended to me by family members. I am very determined to get through Mystery. I have yet to finish a book suggested by my Mom, which greatly shows my inexperience with reading. I am finally getting to a point where I can push through uninteresting sections in stories, where before I would just quit. They are both supposed to be twisty books, so I am excited to see them through.

And in writing news, I finally finished that outline. Did I mention how important those were to keep up with? I did? Well, it would have saved me a lot of time if I just listened to my own advice. I plan on doing NaNoWriMo next month, but I am not sure if I should do it with my current WIP, or the other one I have. The problem with doing it on my current WIP is that I already have about 60k typed, and it would be hard to gauge what is new. Sigh. I am sure I can figure it out. Just making excuses here. I don’t have enough experience to work fully on two stories at once. Hopefully one day I will get there.

 

Time to wake up

The last day of September. Man that flew by. But I say that every month. I set some pretty loft goals this month, and I didn’t reach a single one of them. That’s okay. I made progress on all three, and that’s what matters in the end. Between a vacation,  a long longggggg drive to go see BTS in concert, and birthdays (so many birthdays), I was quite busy. Not to mention the welcomed change in season, that despite loving, causes my migraines to come out in full bloom. Just a lot going on. But now it is time for all things apple cider and spiced wine, and I am okay with that.

I did manage to read a whole book this week, well, Tuesday. I read it all Tuesday. I took the day off in case we wanted to stop somewhere on our way back from the concert, but we didn’t, and it just so happened to be the day V.E. Schwab’s Vengeful came out. I blew through that book in less than 24 hours. It was even better than the first, Vicious. It was full of fast paced action and interesting characters, and a couple of twists. I really like how Schwab works with morally grey characters. How she can make the reader have feelings for them. How you can think someone is a bad guy, but then you put them next to someone worse, and all of a sudden you don’t know what to think. I am really in love with books that don’t try to tell you what is right and wrong, but rather show you how it is not so black and white. And that ending. It was perfect. So creative.

Still working on a few other books, but the new Haruki Murakami book comes out in a couple a weeks, and a don’t know if I will be able to resist. I am waiting for The Wind-up Bird Chronicle at the library right now as well. Maybe it will just be a Murakami month. I have way less to do, and blackout dates at my job will ensure no wandering off (one way of looking at it, right?). I didn’t get a full finished draft yet, but I did make progress. It doesn’t help that I just keep coming up with new ideas. Whoever said your story will not look like your first draft in the end is totally right. I mean, the characters and overall plot have stayed the same, but other than that, nope. Completely different. Better. Hopefully.

Chapter 10, Again

Is it possible to be both productive, and counter productive? Because if so, I walk that fine line well. My vacation is over. In fact, I need to leave for work in 15 minutes, so I better make this quick. I am behind in my running, currently at 13 miles total for the month. Running in Florida was a struggle for me, bless you who do. It was hot hot hot. My Husband and I leave Saturday for a concert, so I am not sure where the other 17 will fit in. Nevertheless, I will try.

I finished Bloody Rose, and am now onto The Obelisk Gate. It is good so far, but a little confusing. I might have waited to long between it and the first book. But speaking of books, I cam home to this– My pre-order gift for V. E. Schwab’s Vengeful. It cDnKrR4WUYAEslSAomes out in October and I am excited to read it. Also pictured, vicious Titan who decided to wake me up three times this morning. Yay for first day back to work in a week. And boy it will be a busy one. Dinner tonight, a class tomorrow, a hair appointment Wednesday (thinking of chopping it all off, not that I will go through with that). The list goes on.

As for writing. Aye. That is all I can say. I sat in bed Thursday night, unable to sleep. This turned into a double epiphany. The first one was with a part of my current novel I have written a few times (looking at you chapter 10). World building has been a struggle, but I think I am finally get close to where the story needs to be. Of course that means I now have to rewrite a bunch of things I had already worked on this past week. Oh well. Part of the process right? The next idea I had was for a whole separate story. It just came to me, all neatly packaged, characters, setting, plot and all. Tempting. I know the package is a lie, but still I wrote some of it down just to get it out of my head. And so I could go to sleep.

Well back to the grind. Hope everyone has a nice work week. I will update after the concert 🙂

Dancing in September

Or rather, wake me up when September ends. A little of both. This is going to be a rough, but fun month. Despite whatever is going on in the background, I have goals. Lofty ones might I add.

30 miles for 30 years. Yep, that’s right, turning the big three-oh! So in celebration (or masochistic intent, you choose) I will be running 30 miles this month. This is not too much of a reach for me, I already run. But with an upcoming vacation to Florida and plans every weekend, it wont be the easiest. I say I will run while in the sunshine state, but my melting point is low 80s so there’s that.

Finish 3 books. Right now I am working my way through Bloody Rose by Nicholas Eames, which I am absolutely enjoying. I love protagonists who are not ‘kick-ass’ in the traditional sense. As someone who jumps when the toast pops (yes, every time) I find it hard to relate to sexy sword-bearing females.  The other two I have planned are the remainder of the Broken Earth Trilogy, or one of those and 1000 Years of Solitude that I have yet to really get into. Those could change though. I might go on vacation and decide I need a sappy YA contemporary. Which sounds pretty amazing right now.

Lastly, have a full first draft. A ‘finished’ story. I keep going over my strongest sections, and I need to write past that. I changed a few things, which has been mentally frustrating, because it makes me feel like I will never get to the end. Just the other night I diverged from the story-line to write a kissing scene, and as I debated where it fit in, I had a whole new idea on how that part of the book should go. Aye. I hope that is all part of the process, and I hope that I will just keep getting better at it.

It is going to be a busy month. Birthdays galore. A vacation. A concert. Fixing some things. Changing others. Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. Save Ferris.