The hardest thing I had to do today, was chose between which tote bag I wanted for the Vengeful pre-order. Well I wish that was the hardest thing. Anyway, they are both pretty great. I am a huge fan of V. E. Schwab, and I loved the first book in the series, Vicious. Which is really surprising. Actually, if you look at a lot of my favorite authors, you would think I am some kind of, morbid? Person. Not sure what would be the correct word there. But morbid is pretty much the opposite of me. I had to skim some parts (I don’t do drowning- you can thank Mario 64 for that), and in Neil Gaiman’s American Gods I had a small panic attack during the morgue scene. Yet I continue to read these things.
On a lighter note, I read my first romance novel, ever. It was so cute! It is called the Kiss Quotient by Helen Hoang. It is about an autistic woman who hires an escort to teach her the, uh, finer parts of a relationship. If you catch my drift here. It did reaffirm the reason I read mostly sci-fi and fantasy though. I despise when conflict arises from lack of communication. Now with this genre, you just can’t get around it, and I will say the author did an awesome job of working that into the story line. The characters were well defined and very relatable, making it a fun read.
So. The whole reason for my blog. My writing. I really struggled last month. That is okay, life happens. This month I am coming in strong though. I went back to the beginning at started there. Did some editing, threw some new stuff in there as well. I have been experimenting with some shorter chapters among the longer ones. I like it- not sure if the people I share my work with will, but hey, it is all about finding what is right. With multiple points of view, sometimes I just want to show a snippet of someone, rather than a whole multi-scene spread. And if it is getting me to write, why not? The rule is, there are no rules. Someone said that. Or my Mother told me that, I don’t know. But that, and ‘work harder’ are my mantras for this month.
I am doing just what I set out to do with this blog– procrastinate. Including procrastinating blog posts. I feel weird tonight. Tempted to string together a bunch of misplaced sayings. Time heals all apples that don’t fall far from the tree. They make fun of me at work, I am so bad with idioms. I used to swear it was ‘like a broken tire’ (record) and ‘not I, said the walrus’ (sly fox). I really think that walrus one is from something though. I am sure of it.
This is the first month I won’t make my writing goal. Like, at all. I was aiming for 10k, and got less than 5k. Blaming a busy life would be easy, except I highly doubt my life is really all that busy. I read a really great post on Reddit the other day, doing what I do best you know. It is some ‘rules’ for a college course by John Cage in regards to making music but one really stands out.
“The only rule is work. If you work it will lead to something. It’s the people who do all the work all the time that catch on to things.”
Life takes work. Hobbies take work. I have no one to blame but myse– video games. Gosh they are so addicting. But in all seriousness I needed that reminder. I am getting to the point where the writing process is, not less fun, but more labor intensive? At first it was just write whatever came to mind, a scene here and there. But now it is all connected, and if I change something back in chapter one, I have to change it in chapter thirty as well. We wont talk about how I really wanted to change a character name, even thought I like all their names, but you know, that in the moment feeling. Jeesh.
Most of this weekend will be consumed by a wedding, but I will leave you with this, and yes my cat is literally all I take pictures of these days. Witnessing ‘getting down like bunnies’ (that’s a saying right?), or at least an attempt. A second suitor had joined the fray shortly after.
I was hoping to see Deadpool 2, but admittedly this was pretty entertaining.
I wrote something, yay! I has the words. Not too much, but a whole scene. It could be the fact that I fell asleep at nine last night after an evening race. I didn’t make my goal time, but I opted to start farther back to socialize. Oh well. It was hot, and with 10k+ people, there is no room to move. It was the kick in he but I needed, because I fell asleep halfway through my beer, and slept all the way till the morning (Friday is my off day). I feel re-motivated now. I have been writing some backstory too. Nothing that will be put in the novel, but I figured if this becomes a real thing then why not post it here? I guess only time, and hard work will tell.
In the fangirl world, BTS released their new album today. I think my favorite song so far is Outro: Tear. Maybe that helped to motive me as well. New music is always great. Speaking of, their interview with Buzzfeed was awesome. That is the right way to do an interview with non-English speaking peoples. I mean, the puppies helped too.
I also found a perfume I really like, Tori Burch Just Like Heaven. It smells like lilacs. I never wear perfume, it is hard to find ones I like because a lot of scents really bug me. So what a success all thanks to my co-worker’s recommendation. AND, I know, no one cares about this, but I found a great pair of, joggers? I think that is what they are called. On sale in the men’s section at my local sporting goods store. They are Nike brand and way better build than anything in the women’s section. I like to have leisure clothes for when I am on the plane or just want to chill at home not in pj’s. Oh, and, last one I swear, I found a new book to read, even though I am on a reading pause at the moment (the lies we tell ourselves), called A Thousand Pieces of You by Claudia Gray. It is a YA book that one of the YouTuber’s I follow recommended. Her name is Chelseadolling reads. She is super cute and has totally different taste in books than me, but I still love watching her.
It has just been a great week. Which is nice, since I felt like the last three left much to be desired. I should have titled this: Things I like. But then again, I like a lot of things. So the list would go on and on.
For someone who appreciates routine, some may call me fickle. I prefer capricious– just because it sounds cooler. I just finished another book last night, bring my YTD count to 20. I keep track on Goodreads. It has really encouraged me to read more than ever, which in turn I think will help me write better. I pretty much stopped reading after high school except for the occasional fling.
My most recently read was American Panda by Gloria Chao. I still really enjoy YA, there is just something so simple and heartwarming about the genre. This was about a Taiwanese-American girl whose parents had planned out the rest of her life, resulting in a premed track at MIT for a germaphobe. Not to mention the love interest is not Taiwanese, which is a problem. I think the author wrote the MC’s struggle between following her families wishes and her own very well. It was cute and a quick read.
So back to spice. Or rather, herbs. Not sure if it was the beautiful weather, or my form of procrastinating more, but I started a garden this weekend. Boy was it hard work. I am still sore! And this was all after I ran around the park a few times. My Husband and I rent, but there is a small garden plot in front of our place. It was very overgrown and neglected, so I had to remove pretty much everything in it. I ended up planting lavender, basil, peppermint, sage, rosemary, and I think parsley. I lost the tag to that one. My choices worked out well, hopefully, since both rabbits and deer don’t like smelly plants. We have a lot of wild animals around our place. I name all of them. Bernadette and Bernard are the bunnies, Clyde and Claudette are the geese. The woodpecker is Woodrow. And then there is Frank, the groundhog.
I will have to crack the proverbial whip on writing. I had to talk out some ideas for the scenes I am stuck on this week, but that went really well. Now I feel refreshed. I have been bad this month. Only the first few days did I write anything. I have that log to prove it :/. Today, I must celebrate all things Mom, but hopefully the rest of the week will bring progress.
I feel like that could be the title to some kind of, self discovery piece. But really, I just have an aggressive case of hiccups as I write this. I used to get kicked out of class as a kid when I had them because they were so loud/sound super funny. One of my irrational fears in life are hiccups that never go away. IT CAN HAPPEN. (I’m not sure if that is true.)
So far, no writing these past few days. Though I have somehow managed to find other things to occupy my time. Started reading Haruki Murakami’s What I Talk About When I Talk About Running. Very good so far. Very, relatable. Just what I needed to get out of my own head. I enjoy his description of what he thinks about, or rather, lack there of while running. Murakami refers to it as the ‘void’, which I completely agree with.
I had so much to say. But all of a sudden I am just so tired. This will just be a super random post. So I leave you with this:
Titan attacking grumpy cat. I was cleaning and knocked it over in my bedroom. Next thing I know he was dragging it around the house. Going for the killing blow right there.
We could all use a little motivation once in a while right? I would be lying if I said I never motivated myself to run with a tasty treat, or a nice drink after cleaning. But rewards can come at a cost, especially if you are doing it with purchased items. So finding other ways to motivate oneself is always good. Which leads me to this:
It started May 1st (yesterday) but it is still a pretty cool concept. I found it on Reddit last October and now he is doing another one. Basically it is a Google spreadsheet that people can log how many words they have written in a day. Despite not knowing anyone else on the list, it still manages to hold me accountable. I want to complete it. You can change your total if you like, but I think I will only do that if I reach 10k early. Baby steps. Anyone is welcome to add their name to the sheet at any time. It saves it right in your documents so you don’t ever have to find the website again.
This week is going too slow, and too fast at the same time. So much to do, rather, so much I want to do. On top of those things we have to do. On that note, I am going to go watch YouTube videos to procrastinate.
Especially when used in reference to a book. Last night I stayed up till 2, finishing The Children of Blood and Bone. What an great book, I cant wait for the next one. Tomi Adeyemi is a wonderful storyteller. Each chapter left me wanting more, hence why I just powered through the last quarter yesterday evening. I gave it five stars. Only a couple things I didn’t like, but overall an excellent read. I highly recommend it.
I am running on this amazing high right now. Between finishing this book, and then the last book in the Themis Files Trilogy comes out May 1st, Only Human (so excited!), AND THEN, I also got a copy of Tyler Johnson Was Here for 2.99 off of Amazon. Yay reading!
Next, a musical group I really want to see has announced their tour dates, and I am itching to get tickets. We shall see. I am not too picky, as long as we are not up in the nosebleeds, they make me feel super dizzy. But it is going to be stressful when they go on sale. I have a feeling it will sell out in minutes. I have two venues that are close enough for a weekend getaway, so hopefully one of them will work.
And lastly, I finally conquered the battle scene I was writing. Not only did I dislike writing it, I also don’t like reading them. They can be so boring to me. So I channeled my feelings on them, taking what I don’t like about typical battle scenes, and writing around that. Writing more about what the character’s felt, rather than the actions of their weapons. None of my perspectives are skilled fighters, which makes the scene a little more difficult. I am hoping it worked. Thankfully I have a couple awesome friends who read way more than I do and can give me pretty sound advice. In fact, I wouldn’t be this far without them.